novelI Really Want To Invite Each One Of You To Shut Up
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After returning home, she locked herself in her room. She could not accept it; she was unwilling to do so.
She was unable to believe that she went on... Brother Yun Fan's bed. Worse, she was unable to believe that she was... by her best friend Shui Ling's finance.
She had no time to recollect her breath, as the next day, she found out that Father Ying gave Mu Yunfan a tight slap, causing both families to officially cut ties.
That was a winter day with massive snow. She dashed out of her room, completely forgetting to put on her shoes, and ran barefoot to the Ying residence. All she saw was a warrant from the court hanging on the door. The Ying family was under investigation and everything had been seized.
The maids said that Shuiling went to the Mu residence, that she ran over barefoot. Her feet were icy cold. The floor was covered with blood. She did not know where it came from, but it was covering the entire floor. Maybe it was from being pierced by a sharp object, but she did not feel any pain.
When she arrived at the Mu residence, she witnessed the most heart-breaking scene ever. Shui Ling... kneeling before the door of the residence.
Shui Ling donned a thin red jumper. Red has always been her favourite colour. Youthful age, carefree character, her life was just like that of an arrogant princess.
That princess pitifully kneeled in the snow, tears streaming down her face, softy begging the Mu family to help her father.
But the door to the Mu family was firmly closed.
When she stepped forward, Shui Ling fainted and fell on the ground due to the extreme cold.
Just like what Xu Lin said. The other members in the Ying family all met their ends. Shuiling left the country. Even when she was leaving, Shuiling was unwilling to give her an opportunity to see her again.
She did not know that everything would end like this. Everything happened too quickly. It'd gone to hell within two days without any warning signs, just like a nightmare.
She did not have any energy to explain how she'd ended up on Mu Yunfan's bed. All she knew was that she harmed everyone. She harmed the Ying family. She harmed Shuiling.
She was only 18 at that time, yet she was stuck in a dilemma coming from every direction, and she did not have any solutions to ease her panicked mind. She was surrounded by those she loved. She lost what was deemed most precious to a lady. She did not dare tell anyone, not even one soul.
For a long period after that, she thought of herself as an unlucky star. It was as if she'd contracted a psychological illness. This sickness led to amnesia. She told herself again and again to forget the past, just like nothing had ever happened.
This was the only way she could continue on living.
It was a pity that this kind of hypnosis methodology was of no use. When Mother Ying passed away, she suddenly thought of the slap she wanted to give Mother Ying when she pushed the door open and received the look of hate and disdain that Mother Ying had given her.
Xu Lin was right all along. She was too scheming and too selfish, and this was a secret that she kept in the depths of her heart.
How could she be this type of person?
However, that was not to say that nobody would believe that she did not have any intention to scam anyone, but rather she was unwilling to face her past, unwilling to face that side of herself.
Maybe this was better. If everyone in the world knew of this, she did not need to be this helpless anymore. Only she knew of how much pain and guilt she'd been enduring tirelessly this whole time.
Without knowing, Ning Qing consumed an entire bottle of red wine. The empty wine bottle rolled onto the ground. Her entire body lay flat. She closed her eyes absentmindedly, drunk.
Hot fat tears burst down her face, without an ounce of control.
Her mind was unclear and when she slipped into unconsciousness, she murmured with a hint of fondness, "I am sorry, Shaoming."
She did not dare think of him, but at that moment, she missed him most.
Ning Qing was jolted awake the next day with an incessant ringtone interrupting her slumber. She wiped the sleepiness in her eyes, there was no air conditioning in the wine cellar. Her body lay stiffly on the floor. Her limbs were numb. Her head and sinuses hurt; it felt like she was about to contract the flu.
With a single glance at her phone, she saw that it was a call from Xiao Zhou. She answered the call but did not open her mouth to speak.
The situation on Xiao Zhou's end was a mess."Ning Qing, what are you doing now? What was the meaning behind the words that Xu Lin said at the gala last night? Did you know that you are in the entertainment headlines right now? This matter has blown up the entertainment industry!"
"Our office's landline is jammed with calls. The web is full of negative coverage of you. Comments on your Weibo have been filled with curses and personal attack on you."
"Ning Qing, I do not care if the claims are true or not. It has been a struggle to get to the position that you are at today. I believe that if you were willing to do so last night, based on your intelligence and quick wittedness, you would have been able to handle the situation at hand. Why did you not defend yourself? Did you give up on yourself?"
Ning Qing silently listened but did not respond. Xiao Zhou has been friends with Ning Qing for years. She understood Ning Qing very well. She calmed the fury inside her and said, "Ning Qing, there was a picture that was uploaded onto the internet today. It was a picture of you and Mu Yunfan taken in bed three years ago."
Ning Qing's hands froze; her pupils dilated.
"Ning Qing, things are on a level that cannot be controlled. We are all waiting for you to recharge and move on. I don't believe that you have yet to notice this incident had been clearly premeditated beforehand. There is someone going after you."
"Ning Qing, I suggest that you go on the internet to see. Emperor Entertainment Group's share prices have risen significantly today. This matter has caused Xu Junxi to become the ultimate winner. On the other hand, Guang Qing Company's share prices have plummeted significantly due to the controversy surrounding you.
Ning Qing's dry eyes immediately burst out into tears, she bit her fist, controlling her immense sadness."Shaoming, he... won't want me anymore."
Xiao Zhou did not know how to comfort her, it was only up to her to overcome these trials, and nobody could help her to do so."Ning Qing, if you do not make any effort, how would you know that Young Master Lu would not want you anymore? Never give up on yourself. The office team supports you/ We're waiting for you to regain your footing. Once you have a solution, call me anytime. We will be waiting for you."
Xiao Zhou ended the call.
Ning Qing wiped her tears and used the wall to help her stand up. She dragged her numb limbs and switched on the notebook to open the webpage.
Today's entertainment headline read, "This generation's Best Actress Ning Qing hungry for power, 3 years ago went to bed with Mu Yunfan, Xu Junxi endured great shame."
She scrolled to that picture, her 18 year old self seated on the bed in fear, covered with a thin blanket, with a shirtless Mu Yunfan embracing her in his arms.
Ning Qing read the comments left by netizens....
"Never imagined that the Best Actress Ning Qing would snatch away her best friend's fiancé, by engaging in adultery. I was fooled by her elegant and poised appearance."
"I agree, I never thought Ning Qing would be such a person, I used to be her super fan. I can't continue supporting her anymore."
"The actresses nowadays have a lack of honesty. I still remember when Ning Qing won against Xu Junxi and Ning Yao with her wit. We applauded her actions. I did not expect her to betray them first. Xu Junxi is a good man, and Ning Yao comforted his scarred and insulted heart."
"Ay, never thought that this generation's Best Actress would be that pathetic, it is hard for us to swallow..."
Ning Qing stared blankly as she scrolled through the website, at this moment, her phone rang again. It was a call from Emperor Entertainment Group's Director Wang.
"Hello, Miss Ning, what exactly went down? Xu Junxi's popularity has skyrocketed overnight. This controversy has led to a surge in Emperor Entertainment Group's shares. This has led to the board of directors to follow his preferences. Everyone is discussing the removal of your position as director."
Ning Qing hung up.
Her beautiful eyes were blank and unable to focus. The eyes on her pale face were fixed on two comments before her.
"Young Master Lu, your girlfriend seduced her best friend's fiancé 3 years ago. Did you have any idea of this? She even got together with President Xu Junxi. Would you still want a girl that is unclean?
"To the comment above: maybe Young Master Lu is just playing around. The more men that she has been with, the better her technique, haha..."
Pa! She slammed her notebook shut.
She was shaking uncontrollably, and she did not dare to look further.
Her delicate small face was wet with boiling tears. Everyone knew of Lu Shaoming's background and status and was reluctant to comment freely. In the vast sea of comments, she could only find these two comments, but these two comments were enough to represent the opinion of the entire population.
Everyone was mocking Lu Shaoming.
He was such a clean and pure man just because of her. He dirtied himself.
Guang Qing Company's share prices have fallen heavily because of her. This was the biggest and most heartless taunt the citizens had given to Lu Shaoming.
How could she allow him to be the laughing stock of others? A man like him should always be regarded highly.
Ning Qing's feeble shoulders continued to shake as she sobbed helplessly.
Just then, she received a call from Xu Junxi.
Ning Qing bit her fist, and tried to regulate her breathing to a normal range. She answered the call and said, "Hello."
"Hello, Ning Qing." Xu Junxi replied with a hoarse voice.
"You knew everything from the start?"
"Yes."
"So you distanced yourself from me due to this matter and fell in love with Ning Yao instead?"
"Yes, that's the biggest reason! I cannot accept my fiancé going to bed with someone I consider a brother. I felt utterly insulted, " Xu Junxi proclaimed through his teeth. These things that were buried for 3 years finally came to light. He felt free. He hated this. He hated this too much.
He was arrogant and said every word harshly. Now he was unbound and had the freedom of revenge.
Ning Qing always thought this was all his fault, now looking back, whose fault was it exactly?
"Ning Qing, now you know the reason that I fell in love with Ning Yao. You always thought that it was my fault. Actually I held in all those grievances. It was you who let me down."
"Xu Junxi, stop bullshitting!" Ning Qing stood up and yelled.
On the opposite end of the line, Xu Junxi was shocked. This was probably the first time he had ever heard Ning Qing curse.
He broke out in laughter. What she did mean. Was she mad? It was her betrayal 3 years ago, but today, she still did not feel an ounce of guilt and shame. She was even shouting at him now?
!!!
"Xu Junxi, did you know that to a woman, as long it is not done with the man she loves, any another person would be considered rape! Did you ever know, everyone else ever know, I was drunk that day so I climbed into bed. Fate was cruel to me. I was the true victim 3 years ago. I am the innocent party in all of this!
"I closed my eyes and my entire world changed. I lost something that was most dear to me. I shouldered the Ying family's downfall. I am guilty of all this. But what did I do wrong? Can you tell me what I did wrong?
"Why should I shoulder everything?
"I was only 18 then. I was injured badly. I sobbed for the entire night. I dreamt of Aunty Ying. I had numerous nightmares. I almost went mental. I kept this a secret in order to live on. Who did I offend? Whose profit did I steal? What authority do any of you have to be pointing the finger at me?
"I really want to invite each one of you to shut up!
"Xu Junxi, do you think by letting me know that you knew this matter beforehand, everyone else would be praising you? Let me tell you: You are wrong! I despise you even more now! I only regret that I did not stab you during your engagement ceremony with Ning Yao!
"I slept with another man. Did you not have even one word to say? Other than distancing yourself from me, you were also disgusted. You think I was willing to be used? Do all the young victims of sexual abuse have to shoulder all responsibility for the perpetrator's misdeeds? How much more shameless are you? How pathetic? How scheming? You chose to ignore your fiancé's innocence! You dumped me when I needed you most! Just because I slept with another man, you turned and left to Ning Yao, who was 'clean and innocent'. No wonder you value a woman's chastity so greatly; whoever you choose to love, you only actually love yourself!
"Xu Junxi, I would rather it was the guilt you had for Ning Yao that led you to fall into her embrace, instead of your cowardly actions. Please remember, even if I, Ning Qing, owe the entire world, I do not even have one cent of debt that I owe you!"
Ning Qing sobbed as she shouted all these words. There was a mirror in the room. She saw her tear-filled eyes in the reflection. Her eyes and nose were red. Her red features on her pale face were a visual shock to her. Her hair was in a mess. Her emotions were out of control.
Xu Junxi was stumped and froze. He did not have any response to her criticism.
She was drunk when she got in the bed?
Oh. He recalled the night. At that time she did have a lot to drink. Her face was crimson pink, pretty like a rose in June.
The 18 year old Ning Qing was a woman that made all men fall in love at first sight.
She said she wanted to go to the restroom. He wanted to escort her there but she rejected him.
After that, when Father Ying slapped Mu Yunfan, he had been present; he knew everything that happened.
Now she was seeking responsibility for the matter. Whether she was a willing party or not, she'd been soiled. What gave her such privilege to be shouting at him?
The more stubborn she was, the more he wanted her to have her heart broken.
The blood in his entire body was boiling hot. His eyes were cold and he laughed eerily."Ning Qing, what is the use of being so emotional? You only dare to shout loudly at me. How about Lu Shaoming? Do you dare to repeat the story of your innocence during the rape to him?
That voice on the other end immediately went silent, Xu Junxi could only hear her breathless sobbing, which was immensely heart-breaking.
Haha, he just knew that he'd get to her by mentioning Lu Shaoming. He was her ultimate weakness.
She was in pain.
But, but why was his heart in such pain, In such agony? The girl that once belonged to him, there finally came the day where he had to rely on using another man to provoke her pain.
Such a joke!
This was such a fucking joke!
"Ning Qing, which man on earth would be obliged to accept dirtied second hand goods? Oh, let me guess, you have yet to tell Lu Shaoming that you are no longer a virgin, right? That's not right, you have slept with him already. How did you fool him? Did you get any reconstructive surgery in the hospital?
"Lu Shaoming is a man of high status. He has an iron grip on the market. He has been standing on the peak of power since birth. This is good. You've dragged him down with you. You have turned into his only blemish!"
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