novel- Rare Tender Moments
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He Gu looked at Song Ju Han's hegemonic look that "you don't have to promise were not broken up today", a bit of tiredness hits his heart.
He suddenly figured it out.
What he wanted is at his fingertips. Why refuse? Why not try it, try if it is really as beautiful as he think, try to see if Song Ju Han can hold it for a few months, if he can bear with him for a few moments.
He guessed it will not be more than three months.
Song Ju Han was born with no time specific concept. His background and family did not teach him this. After he grew up, he faced so many temptations. Whoever talked to him about "only me" must be scornful of others. His promise of "not to fool around with other people" is only a temporary condition to deal with He Gu anger.
As for Song Ju Han's "seriously together", it's very sweet, but it can't go to his heart. Because once he really believes that they are together, his possessiveness will completely devour both people and drag themselves into nothingness.
He Gu stretched out his fingers and gently stroked Song Ju Han and said faintly: "Okay."
Song Ju Han smiled. He knew that he knew why He Gu couldn't bear be away from him. He Gu has been too calm and steady all the time. Occasionally, he had a bit of a sigh. He likes to see what is different from the past, so he likes to bully him in bed, just to make this man show the facial expression that others can't see.
"But... since you promised me, you must abide by the promise." He Gu dark face is like a dark lake with no bottom seen in the bay."If you sleep with any other person we will be completely finished."
Song Ju Han said proudly: "I promised you, naturally I will do it." He pressed his head in the back of his head, gently covering the lips.
He Gu blinked his eyes and felt that the kiss was bitter.
This scene seems to be similar, yes, it was the same the case six years ago.
At that time, he was doing it in the name of "having fun" to stay with Song Ju Han. This time, he was serious... seriously planning to "play".
Because the first one to ruin the agreement, must be Song Ju Han, as long as he accompanied the play to finish this last journey, Song Ju Han has no reason to force him to stay, it is also at the last moment, but his long-cherished wishes come true having Song Ju Han all for himself.
Song Ju Han did not go back in the end, forcibly holding He Gu he went on to sleep until dawn, only to sneak away. Fortunately, Sun Qing went back to Shanghai to handle the official business, otherwise she would definitely found them.
With the end of the spring break, the heat of the news finally began to dissipate and fans and reporters around the hotel were also gone.
He Gu stayed at home for almost three weeks and one day he finally got the courage and decided to go out.
He put on his coat and put on his sunglasses and when he went downstairs, he met the passengers who took the elevator. He felt a guilty conscience.
Walking slowly along the street, he found that no one paid special attention to him. He tried to take off the sunglasses and watch the scenery in the early spring more clearly. This is the most beautiful time of the capital in the year. The chill is not gone and the vitality is vivid. It is a pity not to look at it.
The pedestrians are woven in the crowd, but there is no such thing as the imaginary pictures that have been pointed at, the computer and the TV are turned off, as if the whole world is clean, no one knows him, no one pays attention to him, no one will overdo it. The mind is on a topic that is already out of breath.
He Gu couldn't help but laugh at himself, he is really seeing himself as a mediocrity.
He went to eat out by himself, he watched the movie, then went to a coffee shop to read a book and called his own boss and wanted to talk to him about his resignation.
That afternoon, he had a meal with his boss. He was open-minded and calm. Without a few words, he ended his career in Nanchuang after nearly seven years.
Even if he is psychologically prepared, he still felt sad. The youth and sweat he contributed in Nanchuang has ended at this moment with helplessness. How can he not feel sad?
The boss said that the company would give him double the year-end award, plus more than three months of salary, whether it is a nod to his mother's face or because of his affirmation of his years of hard work then thank him for being so clean, In short, the company did not treat him badly.
Chen Shan helped him clean up the office, go through the formalities of resignation and hand over the work with the person who succeeded him. He would not go back.
He suddenly remembered Gu Qing Pei. When Gu Qing Pei left, the diners they had eaten countless tons of food, so the atmosphere was so high, so the future was boundless. And he couldn't even talk to his former colleagues, even if he didn't have He Gu to go back to the company to take a look, he went so madly.
This must be "thank you" to Song Ju Han because now he can look for another job.
After finishing the resignation, He Gu call Gu Qing Pei and wanted to come out and talk.
He has been actively trying to dig up his Gu Qing Pei. At this time, he was in a bad state. He said that the company had something wrong here and apologized to him. Obviously everything has become a mixup over there.
Somehow he was worried and asked Gu Qing Pei what happened, Gu Qing Pei would not say it.
With Gu Qing Pei's character, it is difficult to make this kind of worry happen and it cannot be concealed. It must not be a trivial matter, so He Gu did not ask again, but comforted him. Although he is going to go to work for Gu Qing Pei, he does not want to get into the job right away, just because he can take a break for a while and then wait and see.
After contacting the decoration company, he officially began to decorate his home. The house is small and the construction period is expected to take no more than two months. He Gu that the foreman who has cooperated many times is very reassured, he handed over the house to him, bought a ticket and went to Shanghai.
When he got off the plane and just turned on the phone, it was jumped out of a row of missed calls. All of them were Song Ju Han. He returned a text message: Whats wrong?
Song Ju Han's phone quickly caught up: "Where did you go? Why was your phone shut down?"
"Was on the plane, I came to Shanghai to see my mother."
Song Ju Han seems to be relieved: "When are you coming back?"
"No, it will be two days."
"My dad is no longer looking for someone to look after me anymore. Come back to me soon."
"Yeah."
"When is 'Yeah' coming back?"
"I am not sure."
"Two days."
He Gu said: "I am not sure."
Song Ju Han scoffed on the phone: "Forget it." Then ended the call.
He Gu didn't care about it. If Song Ju Han suddenly turned the call into sex call, it would be scary.
He Gu got in the car, went to the hotel he stayed at the last time and had dinner with my mother and Su Su at night.
Although Su Su is usually naughty and speaks a lot, but this time he was surprised because she was sensible. She didn't mention the news that had been raging in the past, just like nothing happened, she sitting in his arms and sharing with him videos of her singing and dancing, photos of skiing in Switzerland.
Until Sun Qing went out to answer the phone, Su Su said quietly: "Brother, is Song Ju Han really your boyfriend?"
He Gu touch her head: "No."
Su Su looked at him, her eyes sparkling, obviously she does not believe hi.. After all, he once lied about not knowing Song Ju Han. In this matter, she estimated that there is no credibility.
He Gu said helplessly: "Really no." The word boyfriend, placed between Song Just Han, it always looks very funny.
"Then do you like him?" Su Su said with a longing, "I like him too, he is handsome and cool."
"Yeah."He Gu laughed, "But he doesn't like me."
Su Su smashed her eyes, then frowned and said, "Is he sure that his eyes are okay."
He Gu felt teased.
"Brother, after you resign, will you come to Shanghai?"
"I still do not know."
"You have to come."
When he thought of Gu Qing Pei, he had some hesitation at this time. If Gu Qing Pei really had no job for him there, would he really want to come here? There are at least relatives here...
He Gu shook his head: "I have to take a break and plan again."
Returning to the hotel in the evening, He Gu went to shower and when he was going to sleep a doorbell rang.
He cried: "Who is it?"
"Room service."
He Gu swore, this voice, it won't be... He jumped out of bed and opened the door.
Song Ju Han's mouth was smacked with a touch of evil laughter, he looked at him with a sly look.
"You, how are you..."
"It is not easy to find the hotel you staying in." Song Ju Han hugged him."Whoever let you run so far, I had to come to you."
He Gu was scared to be seen, quickly returned to the room, closed the door: "How do you dare to fly now, are you not afraid of being recognized?"
"So I didn't fly, I sat in the high-speed rail and I almost broke my back." Song Ju Han stretched his slender torso."I covered my face and I couldn't be recognized. It definitely opened my eyes into this kind of travelling."
He Gu looked at Song Ju Han's appearance's ignorant appearance and he couldn't say what it was like. In the moment he saw Song Ju Han, he did feel a little surprised.
"I am going to take a shower." Song Ju Han bowed his head and kissed him and said, "Wait for me."
He Gu reaction didn't happen until Song Ju Han entered the bathroom and he only sighed. He had planned to stay in Shanghai for ten days and a half to see if he could adapt to the climate and environment here. It seems that he can't even stay for a few days now.
Song Ju Han took a quick shower and threw himself into the bed. He pressed He Gu under his body and kissed him intimately: "Were you going washing it's so sweet."
"Yeah"
"It was almost like you prepared for me." Song Ju Han laughed, oh--how to dial the sex.
He Gu hasn't you done it for a long time and the body suddenly felt awkward--and agitated, he now wants to enjoy sex.
Song Ju Han was very patient today when he was mobilizing the desires no one knows more about He Gu body than him and he can control the ups and downs of this person.
The two of them had f*cked for an entire night, just like the flames that had been extinguished and they were re-ignited. He Gu desire made him feel like he was sinking in the sea and finally lost the self...
Waking up the next day, He Gu was so tired that his body is almost unable to move, he has not been done hard like that for so long----- he wanted it and the sequelae are quite obvious.
Song Ju Han also woke up and held him with a kiss: "Hungry?"
He Gu eyes were swollen and unable to open and he slowly nodded.
Song Ju Han picked up the microphone on the bed and asked the hotel to send two breakfasts.
He Gu struggled to think about it, but when he just moved, he took a breath and sighed.
Song Ju Han laughed twice and said: "I am tired like you... Are you tired of that little marathon? Your physical strength used to be better than this."
He Gu didn't want to answer, he wanted to take a shower.
"Okay, I will help you shower and you can lay down honestly." Song Ju Han took him back into his arms and stroked his smooth back."We are not going out today."
"No." He Gu opened one mouth, throat was hoarse, he remembered everything last night, suddenly he felt his ears go red, "My mother..."
"You were not going to stay for a few days, just say that you are going to meet friends today, you are like this, how can you let you mother see you like this."
He Gu slammed the swelled head on the pillow. Indeed, how can he let his mother see him like this, He Gu was afraid that walking is out of the question.
Song Ju Han gave him kiss on the a temple: "are you feeling uncomfortable? I will massage you."
He Gu body stiffened
How did Song Ju Han turn being so tender to him? This is simply awkward.
"I often think..." Song Ju Han said, "What were you thinking about in the detention center? When you promised to cop to the charges... I was thinking about it."
He Gu was silent.
"He Gu, do you think I am good to you?"
He Gu said numbly: "Yeah."
"Don't pretend, I know that you have sorrows in your heart. You are like this. If you think about it, you would rather not vomit blood. If you don't say, how do I know how sad you are, how do I know what you want."
He Gu gently bit the trembling lips.
Song Ju Han buried his face in He Gu neck, his voice was lazy and soft and he was simply spoiled."So many years, I have met so many people, but only you are true to me, only you don't ask me for anything. This time we are together, whatever I didn't give you before, now I will compensate you. So your heart, your eyes, can only be placed on me."
He Gu wanted to retort with two sentences, but he doesn't know what to say. He has realized that he and Song Ju Han have great differences in character and views and Song Ju Han is only interested in him in terms of sex. He gave up trying to make communication work.
Now even if he want to communicate, he don't know where to start.
Communication is not a one-off event, it's just like a congested pipeline, it is impossible to unblock it all at once. He said too little, thought too much, not just a personality problem, but even if he said that Song Ju Han would not bother to listen.
Today... Song Ju Han said that but whether it is right and wrong, it does not matter at all.
The hotel waiter sent two breakfasts. Song Ju Han pushed his hair back and smiled and pinched his nose."Baby, do you want me to feed you?"
"No." He Gu cheeks were a bit hot. When Song Ju Han wants to be good to people, it is simply glorious thing that cannot be ignored.
Song Ju Han put the breakfast on the table and walked to the bed to hug He Gu he quickly stood up and his legs were soft and the body slid down steeply.
Song Ju Han grabbed his waist and smiled slyly: "This fault.... do not blame me." He closes his ear and whispers, "You should blame yourself for always biting me."
He Gu coughed a little, barely able to stood firm, he pushed Song Ju Han away and walked to the table step by step.
That pain and soreness is really awkward.
Song Ju Han was in a very good mood. He also gave food to him, He Gu was really hungry and ate.
Halfway through, Song Ju Han's cell phone rang. He looked at the screen, his brows were furrowed and he reluctantly answered the phone: "Hey?"
He couldn't hear what was being said on the phone, but he could hear Song He's voice.
"Don't you always want to keep me at home? I was bored at home." Song Ju Han was quite angry.
"What can I be doing at home? There is no nothing I am now more than a dog."
"How can I recognize it, can you eat me?" Song Ju Han hung up the phone, shut down directly and threw it to the side.
He Gu looked at him.
Song Ju Han took a deep breath: "Food."
After thinking about it, he asked, "How is that over there?"
"How can I do that all the work has stopped and he says he has lost a lot of money."
Song Ju Han said that he did not care, but the frustration of falling from a height is certainly difficult, especially for people who are used to smooth life.
"Are you blocked by SARFT?"
Song Ju Han stunned his hair: "It's okay, after all, things are very big and the country is catching the typical model. I just hit the block. My name is not a red-headed document, but they are all Ah-Sheng. My people, my parents wanted me avoid the limelight, there will be no public activities in these months."
"Ah, what happened to Ah-Sheng?"
"Come on, it will take at least for half a year, the basics of the case will be abolished and most of the issues will be turned behind, but my dad doesn't want to use this. I said that the moron Ah-Sheng that he shouldn't touch the drug gadget several times. He didn't listen and now he was pitted by his wife. I still have so many people depending on the work, its really f*cking annoying." The more Song Ju Han said the more angrier he became, the fists were gripped tight.
He Gu doesn't know how to comfort Song Ju Han because he is a victim himself, but it is useless to blame Han Sheng. The law will punish him.
When Song Ju Han looked at him, he whispered, "I should not have taken them to your place."
He Gu sighed: "I really can't figure out, why did you took them to my house?"
Song Ju Han lowered his head and said with some guilty conscience: "You ignored me for a while, I thought, I will bring so many people, you will be forced to act cordial to me."
He Gu wanted to laugh and cry.
Song Ju Han thought of something: "That house, why was it not in your name?"
He Gu silent: "No need."
"What is not necessary?"
"It's there anyway."
Song Ju Han was not very happy: "I can't live there. I will give you an apartment in the city center. Now I am a little monitored but after I go back..."
"No need." He Gu looked up at him, his eyes clear, "I have resigned from Nanchuang and intend to move back to my parents' house."
Song Ju Han frowned: "How many years has that house stood there? The age is bigger than you."
"I had refurbished it."
"I went to go there to find you once. It was small and broken. It is surrounded by residential areas. It's mixed in bad street. You can't go to that place to live. If you don't like to live in the city, I will buy you a villa in the suburbs."
"Song Ju Han." He Gu looked at him seriously, "House, car, clothes, watches, these things are irrelevant to me, taking things from you, it makes me feel uncomfortable, I always felt uncomfortable but I accepted them because I was afraid that you would not be happy, so I didn't say anything."
Song Ju Han face had an incomprehensible expression."He Gu, you are almost thirty. As for what kind of pure love, what about these? If a man don't take care for his own man I can't take it. Don't take it too serious."
He Gu calmly said: "I am also a man, not to mention I do not need to be supported to live, you can understand me, I will not live in your house."
"Why are you so stubborn!"
He Gu continued: "Your car is first, anyway, it has depreciated so can't sell it a few dollars, you certainly won't want it, I won't waste it."
Song Ju Han was annoyed: "Who cares about a car, why are you being so uppity with me!" Although He Gu reconciled to him, he always felt that there was something missing between the two, no, it should be said that a lot less things were coming in between. He Gu was more silent than before, but even in the bed, in the bed, he simply did not look at his face like before, but Ju Han did not know what to do, but when he asked, He Gu used language, eyes and all expressions, actions, etc to tell him that "its all okay."
It's nothing? Obviously it's not nothing!
What he wants is not this He Gu, but the former one, the only one who is considerate and gentle, but the more he wants that man, the more difficult it is to grasp this new one, the combination of countless times, clearly at his fingertips. He still felt that He Gu was far from him and he was slipping away from him little by little.
The feeling of powerlessness made him deeply angry.
He Gu bowed his head and took a sip of soup and said faintly: "It is still best."
Song Ju Han dropped the chopsticks: "What do you mean? Do you want to draw a line with me?"
He Gu silent: "You said we have to be serious together, are you?"
"Of course."
"Then we will start on an equal footing."
Song Ju Han taunted him: "I am not equal because I want you to live a better life? Your thoughts are so bad."
"Maybe." He Gu not be annoyed.
Song Ju Han realized the feeling of the fist hitting a swaying cotton, it's best to completely ignoring it and his heart was blocked. He bit his teeth and looked at him, really wanting to bite him.
He Gu said: "Eat, the food is getting cold."
Song Ju Han turned his eyes: "Don't want to eat." After saying that he went playing mobile games in the sofa.
He Gu looked at the back of Song Ju Han air, he hesitated then walked over and stroked his back: "Come and eat."
Song Ju Han looked up at him, his eyes were angry and like a man wronged: "I am only doing these for your own good, don't you know that?"
"I know."
"You know bullshit, you are deliberately coming against me."
"I didn't mean that, lets go eat."
Song Ju Han hesitated then returned to the table.
He Gu thought of Song Ju Han's childish look, he wanted to laugh.
Song Ju Han said without shame: "What are you laughing at? Come on feed me."
He Gu scrambled the eggs with a chopstick and sent it to his mouth.
Song Ju Han opened his mouth and ate it.
After feeding a few mouthfuls, Song Ju Han's mood was much better.
Song Ju Han is such a character, his temper comes quickly, urgently and slyly, but it also goes too fast.
He Gu often felt that Song Ju Han is a child who has not grown up inside. He has a child-specific naivety and cruelty. Even if he hurts others, he does not know, care or attempt to recognise it.
The two stayed in Shanghai for five days. When he went to accompany the mother and sister, Song Ju Han was in the hotel and madly reminded him to come back fast.
The time of those days is really sweet. Song Ju Han was simply trying to express his tenderness and romance. He Gu knew that Song Ju Han will not be able to cope with it for long and the ability to fall in love is very big work. When the two of them first met, Song Ju Han would not be able to sleep for a night without a a conversation call. He does not feel it, after a long time, he once again realized the charm of Song Ju Han.
Only this time, he no longer fainted to it. He was soberly enjoying the goodness of Song Ju Han tender treatment. He felt so happy. He looked forward to the things he had longed for. It was really good.
Although he has not been so desperate to want it.
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