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After being silent for a long while, Gu Qingyou finally replied, "Ya Ru, my marriage with Jiang Jun has probably come to an end."
"What?"
Ya Ru exclaimed in surprise. When she realized that Mu Mu had twisted her body due to her voice, she immediately covered her mouth and asked softly, "Qing You, are you joking with me?"
Gu Qingyou covered Mu Mu with the blanket and replied, "Yaru, do you remember I asked you what kind of person I am in your heart?"
Ya Ru was nervous as she held her breath."I remember that back then, I said you had a firm exterior but a soft heart and a kind heart."
Gu Qingyou laughed lightly and left the bed. She stood in front of the floating window in the children's room and looked at the garden outside that was obscured by light.
Ya Ru walked over and looked at Gu Qingyou with a face full of worry.
Gu Qingyou rubbed her stomach, and slowly opened her mouth, "If I were to tell you that I am actually not as good as you think I am, would you believe me?"
Ya Ru immediately smiled."Stop joking. We've known each other for so long, I don't know what kind of person you are."
Gu Qingyou turned around and looked at Ya Ru. After being quiet for a long while, she said softly, "Yes, you are not clear about it, because even if you are my best friend, you may not understand me."
"Qingyou, why do you say that?" Ya Ru felt an indescribable fear as she gently held Gu Qingyou's arms. Don't say that, I'm really scared by you."
Gu Qingyou calmly shook his head, and said seriously, "Actually, I am not as good as you think I am. If you knew what I have done before, you would be very disappointed in me."
Ya Ru couldn't help but laugh."How could I be disappointed? I??"
"Do you still remember Ji Yuchen?" Gu Qingyou suddenly asked.
Ya Ru was stu ed for a moment because she hadn't heard this name for a long time before replying, "Of course I remember. He used to live next to the residence of the Aunt Shu and helped you run away from the underworld many times?? Oh, I still remember that he was very handsome and he even had the intention of chasing after you, but it's a pity that I was too busy performing at that time and didn't specifically ask you about it?? Afterwards, you told me that you made a deal with Jiang Jun, and didn't mention that person again, so I thought that person was probably doomed?? "
Gu Qingyou slowly closed her eyes, and said with a light voice."Actually, I've met him before."
"You've dated before?" Ya Ru was stu ed once again.
Gu Qingyou closed her eyes for a long time. Yes, I've dated him... Later on, because Ye Shuo came to find me to make a deal with Jiang Jun, I broke up with him."
Ya Ru was shocked."Why are you??" You haven't mentioned it to me before? Aunt Shu has also never said that?? "
Gu Qingyou answered truthfully, "At that time, I had intended to tell you about it, but not long after I started dating him, Ye Shuo came to find me, so I parted ways with him. I thought that since we had already split up, there was no need to bring it up with you anymore?? As for Aunt Shu, she was hospitalized at that time, so I didn't tell her about it. That's why she didn't know?? "
"Why did you have a boyfriend back then... You actually made a deal with the Boss Jiang? " Ya Ru shook his head, he did not seem to understand this matter at all.
"That's because at that time, I only wanted to get the money I could trade with and I didn't love Ji Yuchen at all. When I was together with him, I had always been using him to protect Aunt Shu and me."
When Ya Ru heard this, her eyes flashed. She stood still for a long time.
Following that, Gu Qingyou told Ya Ru about Ji Yuchen coming to find her a few days ago, and also honestly told his that she did not save her and Jiang Jun's child when he was at death's door.
These facts naturally brought about a longer period of silence for Ya Ru. She kept looking at Gu Qingyou, not knowing what to say.
Before Gu Qingyou decided to be honest with Ya Ru, she had already mentally prepared herself. Facing Ya Ru's silence, she said calmly, "Now you know?? "Why do I say I'm not as good as you think?"
Ya Ru's eyes quickly reddened and she lowered her head. You were in such a tough situation, why didn't you tell me..."
Gu Qingyou choked with sobs, "Because I already owe you a lot, if I continue to ask for your help, it will only be a bottomless pit?? I have already implicated Aunt Shu, I don't want to implicate you anymore."
"Ya Ru shook her head vigorously and looked at the sky-blue window." You did the wrong thing, you know? At that time, you should not have traded with the Boss Jiang, because you chose to trade with him, so you were destined to break up with Ji Yuchen, and you were also destined to?? After that, we must not save our children, because we have already chosen a way to betray our own personality."
After saying that, Ya Ru paused, then continued, "From the moment you chose to break up with Ji Yuchen, you had already betrayed your personality."
Gu Qingyou's chest throbbed in pain, her eyes were wide open as she looked at the light blue ceiling above her head. I know, I always knew that I chose the wrong path, but unfortunately, I didn't choose then?? I don't want to make use of someone I don't love, and I also don't want to implicate Aunt Shu. I even more so don't want to be squeezed by my mother Qu Liyuan in the future, and lead a life that will never change?? "
Hearing that, Ya Ru hugged Gu Qingyou gently and lifted her hand to wipe away the tears that were rolling down the corners of Gu Qingyou's eyes. So, the Boss Jiang was unable to forgive you because of the child? "
When she mentioned Jiang Jun, intense pain came from Gu Qingyou's chest. She looked at Ya Ru in a daze, "Even if it was you, it would be very difficult for you to understand what I did at that time, wasn't it?"
Hearing this, Ya Ru fell silent.
Gu Qingyou turned his face to the side, and then raised her hand to wipe away the tears on his face.
"Qingyou, it's not that I don't understand, I just??" Ya Ru said apologetically, but did not know what to say. She was so heartbroken about Gu Qingyou's tears at this moment.
Gu Qingyou said sorrowfully, "You don't need to comfort me?? Even I ca ot forgive myself, much less all of you."
Ya Ru held Gu Qingyou's arms once again and said softly, "But no matter what, I know that you are not a cruel woman, nor are you a vain woman. You have always been the resolute, soft, and kind-hearted woman in my heart, and your past decisions were due to helplessness??"
Gu Qingyou's eyes were wide open, not allowing the tears to gather in them again. She took a deep breath, and maintained a calm voice, "No matter what reason I have, I caused the death of my own child, this is the truth."
Ya Ru hurriedly comforted her, "Maybe this wasn't your fault at all, because Xia Qingchen harmed you first. Maybe even if you had tried your best to protect this child, you wouldn't have been able to??"
"This is just an excuse, because I don't want to protect my child at the first possible moment." Gu Qingyou said in a sorrowful voice, speaking the truth.
Ya Ru couldn't help but choke."But it's not your fault. Your fate is too cruel. It didn't give you a good path to walk??" Even if Boss Jiang blames you, he shouldn't divorce you."
Gu Qingyou smacked her nose and said gently, "You are mistaken, he did not intend to divorce me. In fact, ever since he chose to go to London, I already knew that he would not divorce me, but since Mrs Jiang was born today, she did not return, and also let me know that even if he and I were to stay married, he would not love me anymore??"
"Why do you say that?" Ya Ru asked puzzledly.
Gu Qingyou's throat tightened, "Because I've sent a text message to him before."
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