novelMeng Gu's POV (4)
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Translator: MiraiSaesang
Sure enough, when the empty window period has been too long, a man will feel lonely, and a lonely man is prone to make mistakes, like casually teasing girls, teasing will cause one to begin to be concerned about her, after concern?
This possibility has caused me to be on guard.
Chen Ruo Yu is a woman who is actually very easy to understand. If you are a bit gentle to her, she will blink and her eyes will brighten a bit, if you are a bit fierce to her, she will purse her lips, puff up her face and it will be written on her forehead that she is not convinced and is angry. If you yield to her and give her a small advantage, she will avert her eyes and bend the corners of her mouth, trying to constantly conceal how pleased she is with herself but unable to hide it.
She is miserly but earnestly sincere, she is nervous and cowardly but also brave and righteous.
Am I paying too much attention to her? I really feel that this is a little dangerous.
This is not good, dragging my feet is not my style, furthermore, Chen Ruo Yu is sensitive and also cautious, perhaps even more of a difficult disaster to deal with than Qi Yao. I have learned a lesson from experience. I obviously know that girls with these conditions and types are not suitable for me. I should be on alert.
By the way, and most importantly, Chen Ruo Yu does not love me.
I remember that she doesn't love me.
Chen Ruo Yu, ah, Chen Ruo Yu, Doesn't this count as you provoking me? Doesn't this count as you deliberately provoking me to look for you to trouble?
I obviously want to restrain myself, but she has to provoke me, well, actually, I want to see her again, I want to confirm if she has affection for me in her eyes.
I have said it before that in every instance of people meeting there is a something gained, right?
This time, I caught the affection in her eyes.
It was unaware, clear, soft and careful.
She doesn't seem to know.
She argued that she was covertly looking into the men's hand cream section because of Liang Sisi, she's stingy and awkwardly turned away, but she was trying hard to argue differently, she's very interesting. I asked her to take me for the sweet dinner in the garden style restaurant, where she teased me that she would take me to eat. I wanted to see how she will cover her story.
The result was it was real - the hospital atrium garden and sweet bread dinner.
If it wasn't to maintain my image, I think I would have laughed, this is really, how should one describe it? What the hell is in that head of hers?
I was joking with her and she responded very easily, for the first time, we comfortably sat and talked so freely. I saw the feelings in her eyes, but she was very calm and was treating me as a friend. I am a little confused, is it that I misinterpreted it and her heart is not as warm as her eyes? that the feelings I saw were not hers? Could it be they're mine?
We teased each other, and wherever we go, this young lady once again had an embarrassing event. As we were eating bread together, we were seen by my dad. I felt it was nothing but Chen Ruo Yu felt very embarrassed, and because of this, she bit my hand.
The hand that was bitten was a little painful, my heart, however also somewhat felt like it had been bitten too.
Truly, this is a little dangerous, right?My mind continuously recorded that after she bit an innocent person, she wildly ran away with her short legs, the rear view of her fleeing back was not at all graceful. I remember her puffed up face when she is embarrassed, her expression when she is very happy. I remember her shy appearance, I remember the expression in her eyes when she looks at me...
She treated me with her true face, when she's angry shows anger, petty shows petty, she cried, she laughed, she didn't put on makeup, when she's dissatisfied she right away protests.
Perhaps... okay, I had better calm down, calm down, and leave it to her to take the initiative to come back.
I sent a text message to her. I said that when she is ready, she should wash her hand for me to bite back and then give me a call.
She has not replied.
Not bothering with me.
I felt a little uncomfortable in my heart.
I decided that if she doesn't look for me, I wouldn't look for her. Well let's just leave it like this, anyway, we're also not too suitable.
I don't know what I am thinking in my heart. I think I have been alone for too long. It's been a long time since I've been like this with a woman, or better yet, a woman that is adorable like this. Therefore, my heart must be clamoring in loneliness, right?
Anyway, if she doesn't look for me, I won't go looking for her.
That day, she called me. When I saw her name on the phone screen, my heart beat faster. But when I picked up, she actually said that she was on a blind date, the other party brought his mother, and that she has elder phobia, she couldn't stand it, and called me for help.
The whole phone call, I only focused on one important point.
She went on a blind date!
She actually went on a blind date!
Moreover, we hadn't finished talking when she hung up. She called to ask me for help, but she was using me as a backup.
I am angry.
She is being insincere to me.
Before long, she called again, in a pitiful and helpless tone. Women putting on a pitiful appearance is really a masterstroke, all my anger unexpectedly disappeared just like that. Well, since she is so miserable, I can't not help her. Moreover, this is an opportunity to see her.
I went to find her and helped her get rid of the mother and son pair. Of course, the method I used, Chen Ruo Yu did not appreciate it. What I wanted was not her appreciation, she is like this to me, how can I be polite to her?
She complained about me, bickered with me, I am in a good mood.
But I am still not certain. I think we know too little about each other. I have failed three times. This time, it is so strange and it seems even more unreliable. Obviously, it is people who are unsuitable for each other, why be concerned? Am I not able to distinguish between the feelings of friendship and romance?
I should wait and look again, I will leave it for her to take the initiative.
I didn't call her for a few days, and I also didn't receive her call. I am somewhat fidgety. I tried to hard to recall what it felt like when I was first in a relationship. I couldn't recall it, so, what is my mood right now?
Yin Ze called me and said they were having a get-together, and that several friends had come. I was on duty and so didn't have time to go. Yin Ze this heartless person said it doesn't matter and that anyway I am missing a lot. He also said this get-together was proposed by Chen Ruo Yu.
Chen Ruo Yu? She is in talking to this group of people, but is not willing to give me a call?
I am very upset. The next day, I have been hesitating on whether to use the get-together as a reason to bother her, after calling her, what should I say? Or should I just forget it? The affection in her eyes may really be my imagination, I can't be certain. Actually, my determination of feelings has so far been wrong, otherwise, how would I have been dumped three times.
I can't determine her feelings, I don't even know my own heart.
I don't want to play games, I really hope that I can fall in love with someone.
I was in a bad mood all day and at night, Chen Ruo Yu actually called me. But the reason she came looking for me was actually to help the relative of her blind date to get an appointment with Director Liu.
Chen Ruo Yu, ah, Chen Ruo Yu, what exactly are you thinking in your mind?
But why am I so happy when I am talking with her? Even if it is bickering, even if it is pointless words, I feel that two of us can always continue talking.
No need to deliberately look for a topic, no need to adjust my manner of speaking to accommodate her, this can be considered as having a common topic, right?This time, Miss wherever she goes something embarrassing happens once again came out with a new trick, her line of thinking and sense of humor is really very miraculous. How did she actually think of using a box of claws to deal with me? How did this plan form? She wants me to make threatening gestures at her, right?
She is really funny and cute.
My heart was jumping, I carried her and was thinking about where to take her to eat, I really like how we naturally get along with each other now, I believe it is the same for her too, I saw her looking at me with her feelings showing in her eyes, I think, I didn't read it wrong. It is very different from the way it was when she pursued me. She really has affection for me.
But then she said that she has learned from the experience of past encounters and the facts have proven that my type is not suitable for her, therefore, she intends to try with other types of men.
I was suddenly poured a bucket of cold water from the head down.
Miss, are you playing with me?
So what do you mean by all those baffling and funny things that you have been doing to me? What do you mean by thinking of me first to come to help you? What do you mean by freely displaying a temperamental expression rich with feelings in front of me?
I became anxious in a split second, I am not certain.
I always thought that if someone loves me, I will always know. But now I am not certain. Am I mistaken? Is the affection I see in her eyes actually the reflection of my own heart? I wish to receive it, so I am seeing it? But is it really not?
I thought I have the right to be willful and angry, so I dropped her off at her house. In retaliation, I bit her hand back. After the bite, I knew why she bit me at that time, it turned out to be really effective in dissolving anger!
But I still haven't completely solved the problem. I still need a drink, so I was going to go over to Yin Ze's and talk. The car hadn't driven far when Chen Ruo Yu called, but I was making a turn and couldn't pick up. I looked at her name on the phone screen and guessed what she was going to say to me.
I drove the car to the side of the road and parked. I picked up the phone and decided that I will not wait for her to call back and will just call her back now. Sometimes handing taking the initiative over to a fool can kill the human spirit.
It's just that this time, in the end I saw Qi Yao.
She was standing on the side of the road, slender and elegant. She turned her head and saw me. She was very surprised, so was I. I hadn't figured out what to do when she just came over and knocked on my window.
She said: "Long time no see."
I said: If I don't see you forever, I don't mind.
Then we went to a bar together. Qi Yao invited me to go, I did not refuse. Later Chen Ruo Yu asked me, why would I go? I told her that I really wanted to hear what she had to say.
This is the truth, I really wanted to know what this woman was thinking?
At that time when she completely walked out on me, leaving behind the line: 'we love each other that is why we need to wait' nonsense. How could she have the face to come back now? At least, I think I can't do anything like this.
If I left someone like that, I definitely will not have the face to go back and hint that I am ready now, and for us to get back together.
When Qi Yao left me, I had once imagined countless time what I would do if she "returned". I hoped that she would regret it and hoped that she will not be doing as good as I am. But now that I have really met her, I didn't think any of that.
What does it matter to me whether she regrets it or not? What does it matter to me whether she is doing well or not?
She's an unrelated person, How does she matter?
To be honest, that I talked with Qi Yao this time, I am a little happy and a little annoyed. I am happy that I really got rid of her shadow, and I am annoyed by her pride and bigotry.
Why doesn't this woman properly see a bit of her own wrong? What the hell does she think? She left me because of her pride, and now she's back still because of her pride. She couldn't stand other people speculating and belittling her, and also unable to stand that I don't like her anymore. Who does she think she is? Should the whole world revolve around her?
Love and not love, reasonable and unreasonable. If you want to receive it, shouldn't you also invest in it?
I drank a lot of wine, but I was not drunk, I was very sober. I could tell from listening to her that Qi Yao was hinting that she has now returned. I also tactfully told her that she has already been kicked out of my heart. Qi Yao looked very sad, and I also didn't feel refreshed.
I parted ways with her and went back to the car and realized that I had forgotten to bring my phone along.
I saw on my phone screen that I had 20 missed calls. I opened them, one was from Yin Ze, and the other 19 were from Chen Ruo Yu, that fool.
19 calls! I really couldn't help but laugh.
You said that this type is not suitable for you. You said that other than me, you want to try it out with other men. But do you know? I also think that you are not suitable for me, but now I feel that you are the only one I want to try with.
19 missed calls, I'm not suitable but you made as many as 19 calls.
I gave Yin Ze a call. He said that Chen Ruo Yu couldn't reach me. She was very worried and so called him. He asked me where I died and what kind of cheap trick am I playing.
It's Chen Ruo Yu again, okay, plus Yin Ze's, this call can be counted as yours, 20 calls.
I couldn't wait and so I drove to go see her.
I drank, I know it's not right, but I couldn't hold back, I was only thinking that I want to see Chen Ruo Yu.
Chen Ruo Yu was very fierce, but as soon as I pretended to be pitiful, she became anxious again. She is a woman who doesn't grab the important point to evaluate. I told her about the matter of Qi Yao coming back. I told her about how my first love hurt me, but unexpectedly she was only concerned about my drunk driving.
This kind of thing is ridiculous, she said that she was fully aware that I drove but yet invited me to a bar to catch up. She didn't say that we are not suitable to get back together, instead was angry about my drunk driving.
Chen Ruo Yu cares about me.
Genuinely, from the bottom of heart cares about me.
I am very happy tonight. I know that Chen Ruo Yu, this fool makes me feel happy. She was a little drunk, I thought that we should meet again to examine it, I requested to meet tomorrow, she happily nodded, I was satisfied and pleased with myself.
I parted ways with her at the door of her house, I left and pressed the elevator button. She suddenly ran up to me and hugged me from behind and said, "Dr. Meng, don't be sad, there must be a girl with the sincerity that you hope to get, who will wholeheartedly like you and not care about any other factors, simply based on feelings."
For a moment, I couldn't move at all.
If someone loves me, I will know.
If I had doubts about it before, then from this moment on, I think I can be really certain. Someone loves me and I know.
Chen Ruo Yu, do you know that girl you are talking about is you?
Chen Ruo Yu, you have completely won over my heart.
A long time later, Chen Ruo Yu asked me: "What is the difference between a lowly thick skinned mouth and a humorous charming mouth? I replied: "You didn't fall in love with me and you are in love with me."I later learned that my family's Chen Ruo Yu had a match with Qi Yao, she said to Qi Yao: "Meng Gu's heart now has me to take care of it."
As I watched her narrate the encounter with her face seething, I couldn't help laughing.
Thank you, my darling, for taking care of me, I am extremely grateful!
Please always take care of me!
MiraiSaesang's Notes: So sweet????.... On another note, the last two chapters were long, over 3000 words, my hands hurt??... Meng Gu really thinks too much LOL??... We are now done with Meng Gu's POV and back to him being locked out of her room tomorrow??...
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