novelForgive me
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Raine immediately approached Lilac when she saw the guardian angel moving away from Jedrek and Serefina, where they were now alone and whatever they said would not be be audible for them any longer.
Meanwhile, Hope was in Kace's arms. The girl was devastated and aggrieved, knowing she had to lose two of the closest people in her life within a very short period, was a huge blow to Hope.
And Kace...
It could be said that he was lost for words about how he was supposed to show his feelings right now. Serefina was family to him. A person who had been so close and important.
No matter how many fights there had been between him and Serefina, they both protected each other in the end.
Were not siblings like that?
Behind Raine, Torak was standing some distance away from his mate, who was hugging Lilac. The nature controlling guardian angel was now going through a mental breakdown.
He made room for the two of them, but his eyes were sharp, staring at his brother who was hugging another woman in front of his own mate.
Meanwhile, when Lilac felt the warmth of Raine's body and her hands gently rubbing her back without a sound, she could no longer contain what she felt...
Everything was so difficult and complicated.
Lilac didn't even know what to think. And in the next second, tears began flowing down from her two orbs nonstop.
Lilac was so wounded by so many unseen wounds that she didn't even know where to start if she had to heal all of them.
The guardian angel looked so helpless.
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Jedrek stared at Lilac with an emotionless face. He knew how badly he had hurt his mate again and felt he didn't deserve her at all.
He had chosen Lilac and decided to let Serefina go, but the truth was; he still couldn't really get rid of his feelings for his first love.
How could Jedrek do all that when Serefina was in such a critical condition?
How could he possibly turn away from this woman who was once the most important part of his life when he was in pain and was nearing the end of her life?
After what Serefina had done and after Jedrek found out the witch's reason for leaving him, how could he just stand aside and act as if he didn't know a thing?
There was no way Jedrek would leave Serefina when she needed him so much with the possibility that he would never see her again...
The cruel possibility that they would never meet with each other again...
Jedrek felt very complicated in his heart.
The beast inside his mind was yelping, scratching the side of his head and made it even hard by howling his mate's name.
Yes, the beast inside Jedrek wanted his mate, he wanted Lilac and the pain Jedrek caused her for choosing to stay with the witch made him feel the same pain.
There was no way Jedrek didn't feel any pain seeing how Lilac was crying silently and trying to be strong by hiding her feelings.
The beast within him would be more than happy to kill anyone who had hurt his mate so deeply.
It was just that, everyone present could point out that it was Jedrek, who had hurt Lilac in such a painful way, and even if he said 'sorry' for a million times wouldn't suffice to atone to his sin.
He was the source of the pain for the two women he loved.
Really, Jedrek felt that he didn't deserve any of them.
Serefina had sacrificed so much for all of this to happen and even had to lose her life twice and be misunderstood for so long.
Meanwhile, Jedrek, who should be the person who knew Serefina the best, misunderstood the witch even more.
How could all this happen?
How could Serefina possibly trick him? And he devoured all those misconceptions and wasted his time resenting the witch.
While Lilac...
Jedrek didn't even want to begin where he should start apologizing to his soul mate. With every breath that he took, the moment he remembered the worst part of his life, the most brutal and most depressing things in his life, Lilac was the part of his life that he regretted the most.
The guardian angel was so gentle and forgiving, even after what had happened, after what Jedrek had done and after what he had said, Lilac still chose to stay by his side.
And it took a tremendous amount of strength to do that.
Jedrek thought, after the ceremony and Lilac officially belonged to him, with every steps and decisions that Jedrek had taken, their relationship had finally made some progress, but who would have thought that they would hurt each other again in the end?
No.
It was Jedrek who continuously hurt Lilac, while the guardian angel was so kind that it made Jedrek feel like he couldn't tolerate himself.
In front of him, Jedrek stared at Lilac who leaned over to kiss Serefina's forehead and the back of her hand gently, as if saying goodbye in unheard words.
Yes, there was nothing more they could do. Everyone knew this, it was just that they didn't voice it out loud.
Because this would only be a final goodbye, and losing someone would never be a good thing, even though they had lost so much, it still wouldn't make their hearts very cold to let go of the witch.
Jedrek stared at Lilac's back as she walked away and whispered softly in his heart.
Forgive me...
That was all Jedrek could say, because he could not offer his heart, which was no longer whole, which was corrupted and worthless, his heart was utterly undeserved of someone like Lilac.
It was only right if the guardian angel got someone with a whole heart, while at the moment, Jedrek couldn't give it.
Post that, Jedrek lowered his head again, focused his attention again on Serefina and for this moment, he let all of his forbidden feelings whatever he had been keeping for a long time, resurface again, as he turned his attention to her.
Only to Serefina.
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