novelCoupled
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When Zhang Siyi was pushed to the floor, he instinctively struggled and resisted, but once Gu Yu lips met his own, he relaxed then passionately kissed him back. As he intertwined his tongue with Gu Yu's, Zhang Siyi desperately wanted more. As if their intimacy wasn't enough, he wanted to become one with Gu Yu.
...... to become one?
When the idea popped into his mind, Zhang Siyi was startled. Strange. Yesterday, he felt ashamed and uncomfortable with their bathroom activities, but now, he was anxious to be connected with Gu Yu.
.... . This feeling, born from love, let it be natural and heartfelt.
It was only a momentary thought and soon Zhang Siyi channeled his emotions into actions and expressed his desire.
With how detail-oriented Gu Yu is, whether he was thinking about work, his life or making his lover feel good, he made sure all aspects were thoroughly examined, thoughtfully processed, then put into action in the most beneficial way.
As if he was filling up a personal database, Gu Yu has patiently prodded all of Zhang Siyi sensitive spots and by paying close attention to his lover's reactions, he could file away the most useful information to be used at a later date.
Zhang Siyi is different. Although Zhang Siyi was very enthusiastic about his sexual relations with Gu Yu now, perhaps it is as Tao Fei said; the influence of dopamine and hormones. No one knows what will happen when the effect passes. Will Zhang Siyi suddenly sober up and feel disgusted at his homosexual relationship?
Even after Gu Yu made a solemn declaration on the day of their confession, he gave Zhang Siyi the right to refuse. If Zhang Siyi hadn't returned his feelings, he wouldn't have forced Zhang Siyi. All Gu Yu can do is cherish every moment he had with Zhang Siyi and with the greatest patience, let Zhang Siyi deeply feel the enjoyment of being together.
Whether it is the muscles in the body or the brain, all of them have memory. In the future, Gu Yu wants Zhang Siyi to associate only the most pleasant memories through his body and spirit with their intimate time together. Gu Yu couldn't tolerate any negative feelings, so he gradually and carefully exposed Zhang Siyi to male intimacy. Proceeding step by step, he took action and observed Zhang Siyi reactions to make sure there wasn't a hint of revulsion.
Since Zhang Siyi was feeling so enthusiastic, he willingly surrendered himself and had no difficulties in repeating yesterday's events on the floor with Gu Yu.
Afterwards, the two of them held each other for a long time, gently kissing and chatting. Zhang Siyi remembered the 'real-fake-play' that Tao Fei mentioned to him during the day and asked Gu Yu about it.
Gu Yu smiled and said: "He really knows me."
Listening to Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi felt a tinge of jealousy: "He told me you two were considered a couple in college. Why?"
Gu Yu: "When I was at university the students would select the most handsome and beautiful person from the department in private as an idol couple. I don't know how popular it was at your school."
"Yes, in high school, but not abroad. It's not popular in foreign countries." Zhang Siyi caressed Gu Yu's face and then pinched his cheek. Acting flirty, he was honest: "You are so handsome, you must have been the department's idol."
Smiling at him, Gu Yu grabbed Zhang Siyi's restless hand and kissed him. He continued: "The most handsome and beautiful winners were often coupled together as a joke. When I first went to university, the department beauty was a senior. After she graduated, another girl took her place, but while she was kind and had a good personality, she couldn't match the beauty of the previous senior. When she graduated, Tao Fei was in his first year. As you could have imagined, he was selected as the department's most beautiful because he was more beautiful than the previous girl.
"Pfft......." Tao Fei really has a face that allows men and women to regard him as an imaginary enemy!
Gu Yu continued to patiently tell Zhang Siyi about the time he spent with Tao Fei at school, including their experience in doing projects together. He also told Zhang Siyi about the many temper tantrums that Tao Fei threw.
With one casual question, Zhang Siyi wasn't expecting such a lengthily and detailed explanation. He was really enjoying Gu Yu's treatment. Laying next to each other on the floor, Zhang Siyi rolled onto his side to put his arm around Gu Yu and snuggled in closer to him.
The Gu Yu now was completely different from the Gu Yu who had played Truth or Dare with him. At that time in the past, Gu Yu often teased him and bullied him. Unlike before, it was so easy to ask questions and discuss various topics with him.
Like a kitten who poked his head into things, touching and scratching to confirm the safety of the environment, Zhang Siyi placed himself into Gu Yu's secure world.
Thinking of Gu Yu's abnormal tone when he first mentioned the Department's most beautiful, laying on the floor Zhang Siyi asked:" Where you also a pair with the senior sister?"
After laughing out loud, Gu Yu turned his head to gaze at Zhang Siyi and said with a smile: "We were only friends. There was nothing more."
Gu Yu gaze and smile made Zhang Siyi feel like Gu Yu read his thoughts. He knew that there was nothing, but since he didn't know anything about Gu Yu's previous 28 years, he couldn't stop himself from asking about it."Tao Fei also mentioned during your sophomore year, you participated in many competitions with your seniors.... Was that girl involved?"
Gu Yu looked at him funny. However, he answered him honestly "Yes." Gu Yu didn't feel he had any past deeds that he needed to hide from Zhang Siyi. Anyways, any information that Zhang Siyi tried to dig up, would be sincerely given.
Being possessive, Zhang Siyi said: "Oh? That school sister was very good and treated you so well!"
Gu Yu saw Zhang Siyi's prostrate chin with a jealous expression on his face and couldn't help but smile broadly at him. The jealous person eats vinegar, but the target of jealousy eats honey.
"Yes, she was very kind to me." Gu Yu frankly and nonchalantly explained: "When I first entered school, she lent me her study notes. As we got closer, she shared all of her knowledge of architecture including design materials and books. We competed together in the first competition of my college career and it was from a party at her place, that I connected with people in the industry. When she graduated, she also sent me more than 300 very good professional books."
Zhang Siyi: "......" -Why is she so good to Gu Yu! Does she like him!
Gu Yu looked directly at Zhang Siyi and continuously praised her: "She is very smart and beautiful, warm and generous, knowledgeable, understanding and one of the best friends I know."
Zhang Siyi: "!!" Unbelievable! He thought so deeply for her and summed up so many advantages! Gu Yu clearly said he didn't have relations with any girls that were close to him, but was he deluding himself?
Gu Yu added: "She went to Yale after graduation and graduated the year before I did. She now works in a famous American architectural firm. Even after all his time, we are still friends and remain in contact with one another."
Zhang Siyi: "!!!!" No! He's losing his cool! He's going to be jealous! He's going to blow up!
Gu Yu smiled wickedly and suddenly pulled Zhang Siyi chin closer. He lowered his head and lightly pecked Zhang Siyi on the lips: "But I don't like her. I only like you."
Zhang Siyi: "........." (t////t) Toying with me! Too foul!
Wishing to see both Zhang Siyi's angry pent-up expression as well as his eyes of devotion, Gu Yu teased him mercilessly. As he played around with Zhang Siyi's emotions, Zhang Siyi expressions rapidly changed and Gu Yu was rewarded. With both hands on his own abdomen, Gu Yu laughed boisterously on the floor next to Zhang Siyi. When he calmed down, he propped himself up on his elbow and said: "Little fool, let me tell you a secret."
Zhang Siyi:"...... Hmm?"
Gu Yu leaned down and said: "When we became a couple, I told her about our first time. She is happy for us and said she wants to meet you when she returns to China at Christmas."
Blushing deeply, Zhang Siyi said: "She knows you are gay?"
Gu Yu: "Well, more than that. She is the first friend that I came out to."
Zhang Siyi was a bit surprised: "Oh?"
Gu Yu: "I started to doubt my sexuality when I was in high school, but I didn't confirm it at that time. I just deluded myself into thinking that I was simply a cold person with no genes for love. After going to college, there were many instances of desire that welled up from within me, but it was very confusing and painful at the time since I was only ever attracted to men. There was this one time I was talking with her and I ended up inadvertently confiding in this matter. She not only did not discriminate against me, but she also helped me evaluate and accept the truth about myself...... To be honest, to have met her at such a difficult period of my life was very fortunate."
This was also the first time that Zhang Siyi had listened to Gu Yu explain the history of his sexual orientation.
Since Gu Yu was the highest ranked student in the school and with his handsome features, Zhang Siyi assumed there were many cultural expectations from his peers that were placed on his shoulders. Knowing Gu Yu's personality, when he discovered his sexual abnormality, he probably went through a period of self-torment and denial. Zhang Siyi can't imagine how difficult a period it must have been for him.
If Zhang Siyi hadn't known Gu Yu was gay, if he didn't learn that Gu Yu liked him, if Gu Yu never reached out his hand and held onto him, Zhang Siyi wouldn't have considered a relationship with another man. Zhang Siyi grabbed hold of Gu Yu and clung to him dearly giving rise to a feeling of mutual salvation. From now on, Gu Yu is his and he will never let go.
Hugging each other silently, Zhang Siyi's curiosity got the better of him and asked:"When you were in college who was it that you lusted after?"
Gu Yu: "At our college the students needed to take a physical education elective so I chose a course in the International Standard of Ballroom Dancing. There was a boy in the class with a similar physique as yours. Every time he danced, his shirt wouldn't stay tucked into his pants and as a result his flexible waist was exposed." Gu Yu's hand unconsciously moved to Zhang Siyi's waist, caressed him and smiled.
Zhang Siyi: "..."
Dodging Gu Yu's movement, Zhang Siyi hurriedly asked another question: "Why didn't you go after the boy? "
"He wasn't as handsome as you are." Gu Yu finally said something that made Zhang Siyi feel happy, but he didn't have more than a moment to think about it because Gu Yu examined Zhang Siyi from head to toe and then said: "I bet the twists you do will be more attractive than his." He reached out a grabbed Zhang Siyi sides and tickled him.
Zhang Siyi: "..." Shit, Gu Yu's eyes are so intense. Zhang Siyi twisted and wriggled from his grasp then squinted at Gu Yu and imagined him doing those sultry dance moves...... Fuck, he is going to have a nosebleed!
Zhang Siyi adverted his gaze, and looked down at Gu Yu's chin than changed the subject once again: "When you were still at the other Architectural Firm, I heard you were chased by a female designer that was eight years older than you."
Gu Yu said: "You know all of this?"
Zhang Siyi let out a "humph" and said: "Who is the one that's so famous."
Gu Yu pinched his nose: "It seems that you secretly asked a lot about me."
Zhang Siyi wrinkled his face: "Who asked? The information was passed along by colleagues in the company."
Gu Yu suddenly propped up himself and raised his eyebrows: "Who is spreading gossip? Too much play time and not enough work. Is that it? I'll have to find out who it is and severely punish them."
Zhang Si Yi was shocked. He was afraid of involving Bi Lele and himself. He hurriedly replied: "I don't remember."
As soon as he gave it more thought, Zhang Siyi felt that there wasn't something right. Gu Yu's responded very normally and yet, asking this was a problem? There must be something fishy going on!
Zhang Siyi immediately bulged his face: "Is there something you are hiding?"
Gu Yu deliberately baited him and seeing how easily Zhang Siyi bit, he decided he needed to set him straight: "Are you so gullible that you would listen to gossip?"
Zhang Siyi is a little guilty: "I, I do not."
Gu Yu paused and explained: "When I was in X Firm, there was indeed a female designer who was older than me and expressed interest in me. I also explicitly rejected her. The female designer is a very good person, but some rumors spread saying she couldn't take the rejection, started stalking me and as a result, I had to leave the Firm and come to Borderless. It is just gossip. I don't know which version you have heard, but I'm very disgusted with those rumors. I have zero-tolerance for such behavior and I expect my subordinates to do the same."
Zhang Siyi not only felt guilty for his own behavior but also, he felt worried for Bi Lele. Indeed, Bi Lele's understanding of Gu Yu is not as good as his so how can he use it to question Gu Yu?
Watching Zhang Siyi's diminutive bow and expression, Gu Yu knew Zhang Siyi was sorry. Gu Yu grabbed his hand and pressed it on his heart and softly and tenderly spoke to him: "Zhang Siyi, listen, I can tell you the answer to any question you might have, but you have to learn to trust me. I've told you that I like you. Only you. I've said I didn't like girls before. I really don't. I've said that I want to be together with you for the rest of our lives. I really do. I've mentioned this before. Being together is a difficult path to take in life. The hardest part about it, isn't us, but the pressure and ridicule from outsiders. A large part of the issue is the gossip and slander of others. If you are so easily influenced by others' comments and views, then even I can't protect you.... Which is why I sincerely hope that from this moment on, you can learn to strengthen yourself and put an end to all external factors that may affect your mood, and personally feel for yourself how much I love you."
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