novelDo you have the heart to?
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Shaoze will leave me, leave me! He had to go without Shaoze, he had to go without Shaoze! I think there is no hope in life! Too painful, no! What was it that was about to break? The aura of death that was so close to her caused a string that was constantly suppressing her heart to break.
"??" The surging disgust for loneliness and the strong impact against happiness made her chest burn with a burning pain. There were only two words left in her head?? "Shaoze!" I'm going to try, I'm going to try, to get back together with Shaoze. I can't leave him when he's so young.
No matter how beautiful Di Family was, Shaoze would always need a gentle mother to take care of him.
I'm not a superfluous person. I'm a very useful woman.
Yun Hanxiao suddenly sat up on the bed. His body had already warmed up. There was no Shaoze, and on nights when there was no Di Chajie, as long as he slowly fell asleep, his body would also feel warm.
She wanted to find Di Chajie, and Di Chajie had the best way out. He definitely knew how to re-enter Shaoze's life and accompany him at his side.
Yun Hanxiao didn't think much about it and quickly put on her clothes, then walked towards Di Chajie's bedroom.
Di Chajie sat in his study and smoked, silently looking at the cold moonlight.
In the bright moonlight, the number of stars in the sky was extremely small. Each and every one of them was trembling in fear from afar.
Di Chajie felt lonely. This emotion was originally so familiar to him, why would it cause the dullness in his chest now?! Was it the moment he let go of Shaoze when they parted, the sudden loss of temperature in his arms, and the attendant overflowing emptiness? Or could it be that whenhe met Yun Hanxiao, she was speechless, but when they faced each other day, he felt as if the curtain was falling more and more miserably on the horizon?! Don't know? It's just a oying.
He forced himself to read the entire report, forced himself to calculate and think.
However, it was still a feeling of loneliness when he put down his work.
What had made him so weak?
The moment the door was pushed open.
Both of them were shocked.
Di Chajie looked at the biological clock that was acting like a star in a movie. When the time came, even if his face was smacked, he would not wake up.
Di Chajie had done those things with this girl before, doing them until she fell asleep.
That time when he was angry, he kept waking her up before continuing?? It was unknown whether it was because he had fainted or because he had gone to sleep.
In short, after 12 o'clock, it seemed to be Lady Hui's Midnight Magic Curse, Yun Hanxiao would be so thirsty that she would want to sleep to death.
But now, it was already 2 o'clock in the night.
This woman had lost weight in this period of time.
Feeling pained, Di Chajie extended his hand and beckoned to Yun Hanxiao.
It was a very dear gesture.
Yun Hanxiao took two quick steps forward and threw herself into Di Chajie's embrace.
Under the moonlight, Yun Hanxiao's eyes were brimming with tears, but they were especially bright and clean.
They looked at each other in silence, as if under the spell of the moon. At this moment, time came to a halt. Space seemed to have frozen right here."Di Chajie suddenly touched Yun Hanxiao's face."There's the cleanest moonlight in your eyes??" As if he was speaking in a dream, his hot breath landed on her parted lips.
"I??" The unfinished sentence was sealed in a kiss! This was a very gentle action. It was like a kiss with light petals, yet it broke a heavy taboo.
Yun Hanxiao leaned on the warmth of the skin.
Sometimes, as long as it was the right person and the right time, as long as there was even a little bit of emotion, there would be a lot of feelings poured out.
It was quiet for a long time, to the point where Di Chajie thought that Yun Hanxiao had fallen asleep as usual.
Only Yun Hanxiao's faint voice could be heard, "Di Chajie..." The voice was light and manly, weak.
"What?" Di Chajie then kissed the top of Yun Hanxiao's head gently.
Yun Hanxiao did not look at Di Chajie. She only felt that her eyelids were jumping.
There was a saying, "Left eye goes for broke, right eye goes for disaster??" His right eye was jumping around randomly. His heart was pounding and he felt like something bad was going to happen.
"What's going on with Shaoze?" Di Chajie thought for a while and said: "I've already asked one of the secret servants to come back and report to me. He said that it was because Shaoze was too busy studying that he had no time. I think Di Family's current arrangement is to take out everything that's good. What Shaoze has never seen before, are all new and interesting things?? The gist of it was not to let Shaoze learn anything, but to let him know what he could learn in the Di Family. In other words, they are tempting Shaoze, and apparently, they are halfway there." It was a war without cigarettes.
Like the United States and China, machine guns didn't have to be fired at them. They can start with currency wars, with diplomacy... But the level of stimulation was no worse than that of an aircraft missile.
It was just a veil of elegance.
Yun Hanxiao didn't know how to answer. It was a good thing that someone treated their son well.
Some people have the ability to be better to their children than themselves, and a few parents can be selfish enough to say no.
Di Family's move seemed formless but it was unexpectedly powerful.
Di Chajie laughed. The old fox was an old cu ing fox after all.
"What do we do now?" Yun Hanxiao asked softly.
Di Chajie said: "What do we do, the Di Family has been passed down for so many years, our foundations are deep, and it's good that we have a personal relationship with each other. There are many people who can easily take Shaoze to do things that are not easy for us here. Furthermore, Shaoze would not be able to learn some of the perso el of the big families. Let's first calmly watch on. If Shaoze likes it, then we'll stay for two months. If he doesn't like it anymore, then we'll make plans."
Yun Hanxiao lowered her eyes. She did not obediently agree as usual, but only said: "I want to stay with him."
Even though Di Chajie was slightly resentful, he was truly unwilling to let Yun Hanxiao suffer: "The treatment of Shaoze by the people of Di Family and you by him are two entirely different things. If you go now, other than doing nothing, you will also bring Shaoze a lot of u ecessary trouble. He's already so tired, do you have the heart to do that? " Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie's eyes, and the sadness in them seemed to spill out.
"I??" She pulled Di Chajie's hand and fiercely pressed it to her heart."My place is very painful, very empty; it ca ot be filled." Di Chajie held on tightly, all the way until he felt pain.
It turns out that one pain can replace another.
Moderate physical pain is easier to bear than physical pain.
"To learn, to do something, not to think all the time. Shaoze is there, and as long as we don't do anything, he'll always be there. Look at Shaoze studying so hard at such a young age. He wants to grow up, raise you, and do something for me. What he can do, you can definitely do more." Di Chajie said.
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie and said softly: "You're smart, and you have such a good idea. Every time, I feel like I don't have a way out at all. If I were myself, I would need to search for a very long time, and it might not be a good path, but as long as I follow you, I will find the most direct, most convenient, and best path. Di Chajie... I'm scared! It's not like I've never had to choose before, but I've always been thinking and thinking and making my own decisions. But this time, it's different. I always want to rely on you. So, unknowingly, I've already become so reliant on you."
Hearing that, Di Chajie was moved, but on the surface he remained calm: "Relying on me, is not good?"
Yun Hanxiao nodded: "The day I moved in, I kept warning myself. I moved in because of Shaoze. It doesn't matter whether you love me or not, whether you like me or not, or whether you will abandon me in the near future. Every day, I would say to myself as if I were practicing magic, so that I could prepare my mind. I'm not a particularly clever woman. All of these things make me extremely uneasy. I don't want to make people around me unhappy because of my emotions."
Di Chajie felt a little surprised: "You've been like this for so many days."
"I always thought that a farewell would break my heart, but I had guessed the ending correctly, but I didn't guess the right person."
Yun Hanxiao said to Di Chajie, "I can't give up on Shaoze. I can only let him go. You also know that I am not strong enough to be as calm as you when anything happens. I have not been able to sleep well these two days and nights, and always felt that there was something without shape or sound. I'm so scared! "
Di Chajie said, "Shaoze loves you, I... I like you too! None of us will leave you, just for a short time. You don't have to think too much." Yun Hanxiao shook her head, "Shaoze's world is already different from mine. I'm so scared! " Di Chajie did not understand, "Everyone has their own world, what's there to be afraid of? No matter how great one's reputation is, you can't possibly not want your own mother, right?"
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie, her eyes slightly narrowed, and she knew that she had not been enlightened by Di Chajie."You and I are from two different worlds, even if there was an unexpected intersection, however?? "It's very easy for you to return to your world, and it's also very easy for me to return to my world. I have the same world life as Shaoze, and now that Shaoze has started to live the same life as you, I don't know if this is good or bad for Shaoze's long-term future."
Di Chajie laughed: "Idiot, just watch the TV series. Some of the writers are from Wealthy Classes and they are all from Wealthy Classes. It's because they are envious and jealous of the Wealthy Classes that they have such a strange view of the world. The Wealthy Class naturally had unhappy people. In this world, there were unhappy people everywhere, and it had nothing to do with the Wealthy Class. Don't see two rich people commit suicide in the newspaper, just think that the Wealthy Class is not happy. In rural China, who knows how many times a year they have killed themselves drinking pesticides, it's just that they don't report to the media for lack of entertainment."
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie, startled... Di Chajie continued, "Some people say that the Wealthy Class families do not buy the right ones, and only buy the expensive ones. Actually, that's not right. A nouveau riche is like that. The average person had money, and always enjoyed it better than the person without it. For example, do you really think that the top restaurants are full of gutter oil and meat? There were only a few low-star and unpopular restaurants. Besides, you think that Chinese food is not suitable for your appetite, so you can go abroad. With money, everything is easier. Food and clothing, money and no money, can enjoy the same thing, these are still the most superficial and easy to understand things. For example, education, you can hear now, you know we all grew up learning these things. Di Tianshi seemed to be extremely gifted at sports, driving a truck everywhere at the age of six. However, it couldn't be compared to his father. My eldest uncle said that a seven year old child, under poor road conditions, was able to reach his destination without having to drive for more than 200 miles. Most importantly, he had only followed them two or three times. At that time, he didn't have a navigation system, and only relied on his excellent memory. These results are a kind of successful mental training for boys. From a very young age, I have this kind of awareness. I am very strong, many times stronger than ordinary people. My future is to lead these people. This kind of psychological learning and strengthening is not what ordinary people think. Just by giving anyone a support point, they can support Earth."
Yun Hanxiao said softly, "What you mean is, the one who needs to change is not Shaoze, but me!" Di Chajie nodded his head, "Yes, you are an adult and changing yourself should be difficult. But now, you are no longer able to pull Shaoze back into your world. He is an eagle, and is born to fly in the nine heavens. If you want to stay by his side, even if you ca ot accomplish anything, you must at least be able to fly."
Yun Hanxiao looked at Di Chajie, glared at him, and spoke in a deep... You mean, we can't change the world, we can only change ourselves with the world." Yun Hanxiao was always able to ignore the words of others and directly say the most fundamental part.
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