novelConfession
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April lay there staring up into his hazel eyes as they filled her with warmth and affection. This was the moment she could either keep running, keep avoiding her feelings or open her heart up again and maybe this time feel the love that she had always wanted and deserved.
"I.." Was all she could whisper before Dean leaned his head against her forehead stopping her instantly.
Dean wanted her truth, not her hesitation, "It's always been you I can't keep talking to you like we are just supposed to be just friends. My heart can't handle this anymore... You are what motivates me, your the only one that keeps me stable right now and I am so drained over the fact that you may not accept my love for you."
April knew his sincerity by now, no man would say it so many times or do this much for a woman if he truly didn't love her. Her only insecurity lay within herself. Women like her who suffered through traumatic relationships are the hardest to love. So she wasn't sure if she wanted to put Dean through that.
Dean lifted his head and started at her frowning eyebrows. He knew she was overthinking. He flicked her forehead.
"Ouch... Why?" April asked as she rubbed her forehead frowning slightly.
Dean replied, "I crave you in the most innocent form. I crave to say good morning and give you forehead kisses. To be able to tell you I adore you when you feel at your worst. I crave you in ways where I just want to be next to you nothing more or less."
He wanted her. Her body. Her soul, her heart.
We all want that person that makes us calm in the soul and crazy in the flesh. She fell in love with the way he touched her soul.
"Okay." April blushed. It was a straightforward response but for April agreeing to give her heart to someone was petrifying. What she held back and kept inside her heart was also simple... Please don't break me.
Dean beamed and then he took her by the wrists and held her down on the bed. He leaned over and kissed her hard with all his passion and affection that he had held back. Then looking her straight in the eye he made one thing perfectly clear. You're mine.
April's heart pounded and she felt butterflies in her stomach. This was her first kiss in both lifetimes. Her thoughts were all muddled and all her questions and worries scattered with one breathless kiss.
Dean was over the moon he finally could say she was his. He left soft butterfly kisses over her face before saying, "At the end of the day I want it to be you and me. I want your late nights and early mornings. I want your good days and your bad ones. I want you when your all dressed up and especially when you use one of my t-shirts as pyjamas. I want you when your young and when you are old. I want you forever."
Deciding he better get up before he took things too far. He rolled off her and got up and off the bed. His heartfelt as light as his feet, he smiled at April and held out his hand to help her sit up.
April took his hand and sat up still in a slight daze she said, "I wasn't looking for anything at all when I met you. Actually, I never planned to love anyone again. But then I met you and that was it I guess." She shyly smiled and stood up beside him. She reached his chest, perfect height for cuddles she thought.
As if reading her thoughts Dean smirked and replied, "Hey... I hope you know you are cute. I wanna chill and watch nextflix with you and cuddle. I will also buy you food, so go shower. I would also like more kisses... and to touch your butt."
Dean then left her bedroom with a big smile. April stood frozen thinking of his last words she then rushed to her bathroom and shut the door quickly behind her. She turned on the hot water lever on the shower and leaned against the door.
"Shameless man." She said in a whisper to no one but herself. What did she just agree to? Did she just say yes to having a kissing, cuddling shameless man? Though she had no doubt about her decision she now questioned if her heart could cope with this overwhelming feeling of love.
She wasn't good with communicating her love to someone. In her last life, she gave her loved ones everything. But maybe she hadn't sealed off all of her love and affection. She had after all met Dean, Michael and Aarna. She chose to love them and get to know them. They had slowly worked their way into her heart.
She got in the shower and avoided the water on her bandage. She would have to visit the hospital to get the dressing changed in the morning. After her shower, she got dressed before making her way to her living room.
She had to wonder for a second if Dean was a dream. It seemed more likely. She opened her door and noticed Dean setting take out containers onto her coffee table. He warmly smiled up at her and she made her way to the table. So it wasn't a dream she thought.
On the tv Dean had a movie picked and it was currently paused. Maybe a shameless man wouldn't be a bad thing she thought.
Dean smiled and guided her to sit on the sofa. He sat down beside her and opened up the take out containers. April pulled a blanket around her and then wrapped it around Deans legs too. He smirked at her actions and she rolled her eyes.
"By the way, I rang my contractor, " Dean announced as he handed her a glass of water.
"Getting your shower finally fixed?" April then took a sip of water.
"No, im knocking your wall through to join our condo's I can't live apart from my angel now that im yours and your mine." Dean beamed at April.
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