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Jingning looked at the lights in the distance, thinking a little trance.
Lu Jingshen noticed something wrong with her and asked, "what's the matter? What are you thinking? "
Jingning regained consciousness and shook his head with a smile.
"It's nothing. It's just that Zhuge Liufeng has been looking for me several times. It's just that I want to admit my identity as a descendant of Zhuge family, but I've repeatedly refused.
Even today, he moved out the jade and his father's legacy, which I would not accept. It's just that I don't want to have a relationship with Zhuge's family. Is it a little too heartless for me to do so? "
Lu Jingshen looked at her in surprise.
Jingning smiles, "do you think it's surprising that I think so?"
Lu Jingshen did not hide, and nodded honestly.
"You hated them before, so It was quite unexpected."
Jingning sighed.
She reached out and gently stroked her abdomen, and her lips curved in a soft curve.
"In fact, I was also surprised. When this idea just came out of my mind, I thought whether I was possessed by the Virgin Mary. Why do I think so?
As a father, he killed my own mother. As a husband, he did not protect his wife. As a man, he did not do his due responsibilities.
I did blame him before, and I didn't want to admit that my own father would be such a person.
But with my own children, some ideas slowly changed.
It seems that I don't want to worry about who was right and who was wrong. I feel tired and unnecessary.
If all the people are dead, how can the rest of them care about it? They will not know. It's just to make the living more miserable. Why? "
The night breeze, blowing through the ends of her hair, will her hair on the temples of a few strands of broken hair, beautiful face in the night appears to have a few rare trace of blankness and weakness.
Lu Jingshen felt a tight heart, filled with faint pain.
He reached for her hand and took her into his arms.
Jingning had to stop and look up at him.
Lu Jing looks at her deeply, and her eyes are full of heartache.
"If I had known that this would make you think so much, I should have protected you from being discovered by them."
Jingning laughed, "what's this
But the man is serious, "although you say tough and resolute, I can see that your heart is still shaken, isn't it? You've thought about going back to Zhuge's house, haven't you? "
Jingning pressed her lips and was silent for a moment.
For a moment, nod gently.
"Lu Jingshen, do you know the feeling of loneliness?"
Lu Jingshen felt a pain in his heart, as if he had been seized by a huge hand.
He nodded."I know."
"It's like a floating duckweed. It doesn't have a place to go and can't find the direction when it comes. Before, I always thought that Jing Xiaode was my father and my mother was my mother. Although I hated Jing Xiaode, I thought it was very simple.
Later I know that they are not. Although my mother is very kind to me, I love her very much, but sometimes people are so strange.
You just can't help thinking, what are your biological parents like? What is their character? What do they look like? What have you experienced?
What other relatives do you have? What do they do? How are they doing? Do you know you exist? "
"That's naive, isn't it? But I don't know why, suddenly I think so. It seems that many things are in a fog, if I do not take the initiative to approach, will never see clearly.
In the future, when my child is born, when he asks me, who is my grandfather? Who is my grandmother? What should I say? "
Lu Jingshen held her hand tightly and clasped her into his arms.
Jingning stretched out his hand and put his arm around his narrow waist. His voice was a little sad.
"Lu Jingshen, I'm a little sad."
"I know."
He had a low voice and a magnetic hoarse, and he clasped her tightly around her waist and pressed her in his arms.
"Don't be sad. You have me, my grandparents, ANN, and now there is another baby. The rest is not important."
Jingning held his arm tightly and did not speak.
The night wind passed between the two people, with a whine of light sound.
After a long time, Jingning finally let go.
Let him go, looked up and chuckled: "OK, I'm ok! Let's go home."
Lu Jing looks at her with deep eyes.
"Good."
He took her hand and the two continued to walk home.
It's not far from the villa. It's only a few hundred meters away. The doctor said that although Jingning is pregnant, she should pay attention to proper exercise. Therefore, Lu Jingshen will accompany her for a while every day. After returning home, Jingning felt a little tired and soon fell asleep.
That night, she had the dream again.
Or in that boat, that sea area, she was pushed into the water, kept falling, falling
Lu Jingshen suddenly appeared, holding her waist from below and pushing her up.
Then a huge wave came, and she watched him swept away by the waves and fell into the deep sea
Jingning suddenly woke up.
It was quiet all around. The room was dark, except for a yellow floor lamp in the corner.
She closed her eyes and breathed gently.
Turning to the wall, I saw that the night was already dark, and the wall clock pointed to midnight.
She didn't know how long she had been sleeping. She just listened to the wind whistling outside. Beside her, the man didn't really sleep. Her whole body was tilted at the head of the bed, her eyes were slightly closed, and the dim light cast a shadow on his handsome face, which became more and more profound.
Jingning raised his hand to wake him up, but his fingers had not touched his body, and his eyes suddenly swept his frown.
He was very strong and handsome, but the frown still made her feel sharp.
The man's eyelashes are very long, long and thick, with a faint shadow under the eyelids.
In addition to these, there is a layer of light blue, like did not sleep well.
Jingning thought about it carefully. Since then, he has been busy with his grandfather's departure. He is busy preparing to get married. He is really tired.
Want to wake up his hand suddenly can't clap down, Jingning gently up, want to pour a glass of water to drink.
However, Rao is her attention again, always shallow sleep of the man in her just started, or immediately opened his eyes.
He was clearly asleep, but when he woke up, his eyes were clear and he was not sleepy at all.
Years of vigilance allows him to stay awake at any time, even if he is asleep, he can also wake up in a second to recover consciousness.
"Awake?"
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