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Muzixi found that they were standing at the door of a ward. Muzixi nodded, and the nurse left.
Muzixi slightly sank to breathe, then gently turned the handle, and walked in.
Mulingfeng is sleeping. Muzixi feels that his father is a lot older. The cheekbones on his already thin face have been raised high, and his chin has been pointed a lot. It's only a few days since he disappeared. He's thin again.
She suddenly felt that as long as she could reduce his pain a little, she would feel that what she had experienced had a little value.
Even though he is not good to her, he is her only relative.
Her mother left her home when she was very young. Her father was the one who depended on her when she was a child. Even though her father always beat and scolded her, he paid for her primary school and junior high school tuition. And she knows that she is his own drag bottle, his mother abandoned him, he would vent everything on her, and he, in fact, is innocent, all blame her own life, she, no one blame.
Muzixi is like this, standing at the door all the time, looking at mulingfeng, just because, such a calm look at her father's time, almost never.
Aware that someone came in, but there was no voice, Mu Lingfeng opened his eyes lazily.
Seeing that muzixi came in, he had a look in his dark eyes. He wanted to struggle to sit up. Seeing this, muzixi hurriedly went to mulingfeng's bedside, helped him to sit up, and put a pillow behind him to make him comfortable.
Mu Ling's arm, which is as abundant as a firewood stick, suddenly grabs Mu Zixi's arm. Looking at Mu Zixi, he asks, "is there any money?" The desire in his eyes was like a juicer, which was about to dry muzixi.
The bottom of muzixi's heart seems to have been torn by him. At this moment, a sharp cold wind is pouring into her heart, and then it spreads to the whole bone marrow. But she just smiled sadly, but her body was shaking involuntarily. She was really hypocritical, right.
Mingming just thought that she could do anything as long as he could bear less pain, but when he saw her as a tool to make money, her heart would still be like a knife.
"Is there any money?" Seeing muzixi's expression, mulingfeng was also in a hurry. His voice increased by several decibels, and his grip on muzixi also increased his strength. His voice was full of anxiety and even the smell of scolding."I just lived in such a luxurious hospital! I just enjoyed a few days. Don't tell me! There's no money so soon! "
A person who doesn't know how to care for others always thinks of himself. When he is suffering from terminal illness again, he is only left with the idea of living, nothing more.
Muzixi took a breath and tried to hold back the tears that would burst out of his eyes. From his throat, he put out two syllables: "don't worry. I'm just here to see you. I'm not here to pick you up. You'll live here for a long time."
Hearing this, Mu Lingfeng's eyebrows gradually spread out, and his hands followed him to release muzixi. He leaned on the pillow behind him and didn't look at muzixi again. He murmured: "fortunately, fortunately, I didn't sell you at the beginning. One day, I will enjoy such pure happiness."
Muzixi has heard this sentence more than once, but this time, it's like a sharp knife, which splits muzixi's head mercilessly, so that her soul will be torn. Her father, her only father, cares about whether he has enjoyed the happiness, but never about how she got the money, even without asking.
Her heart is really cool.
But she said nothing, nothing more sad than death of heart. Her heart, completely dead.
"It's good for you. I'll make sure that the medical fee is paid and then I'll go. You're good for your health..." Even though he was heartless to her, what she said was still full of worry.
"Don't worry, if I live here all the time, I will live a good life. I will stay in such a good ward for a long time. How can I give up to die..." Mulingfeng's eyes, no longer see muzixi, but greedy and comfortable looking at all the furnishings in this luxurious room.
She couldn't help it any more. Her only family members had no trace of her in their eyes.
She, as if, an existence that everyone does not need, such a cruel reality, let her cover her mouth and run out of the ward, Mu Lingfeng did not react at all, as if she had not been here just now.
Muzixi closes the ward door and leans against the wall of the corridor. The cold penetrates into her body. She feels that she has no way to support the weight of the whole body. She slides down the wall slowly.
Memories began to envelop her like a big net from beginning to end: there was a song about "motherless children are like grass". Then, the small muzixi was not even as good as duckweed. In her memory, she had only one father who would go home and hit people after drinking wine.
So small muzixi, the only feeling for her father is fear. She still remembers that in countless days when her father was drunk, she picked up something in her hand and smashed it on her body, or a wine bottle, or a chair. She couldn't even run, but curled up in the corner with her legs in her arms. She even felt that mulingfeng might have killed her Let's be free. But her fate continued in tears and scars. She grew up. At the age when girls had strong self-esteem, the scars on her body often broke her only self-esteem in the night.
Growing up, she can finally stay in the dormitory of the school. So, in order to avoid the cruel Mu Lingfeng, she would rather stay alone in the dormitory of the school, even if it's a festival, even if it's Chinese new year, she can live alone in the dormitory. Every time she looks at her roommate's fingers to count the days back home, she can only imagine whether there will be one in the future The harbor where I linger.
Such a day lasted until Mu Lingfeng was ill. Even though she was full of hatred and fear for him, he was still her father and the only family member in the world, so muzixi took care of him.
However, Mu Lingfeng, who was originally grumpy, was more like a sensitive beast after his illness. His worry about the cost of treatment and the pain made him try to vent all his dissatisfaction on muzixi. Therefore, for muzixi, the hospital was like a place where she would step on a mine at any time. She had to come, but she could not help it Knowing which step will step on the mine, therefore, she can only walk carefully every step and look at Mu Lingfeng's eyes anxiously.
"I didn't sell you in the first place." Mu Lingfeng's words are still in her ears, and Mu Zixi closes her eyes painfully. However, Mu Lingfeng's words stab her eardrum as hard as a sharp needle. She covers her ears in horror, inserts one hand into her hair, and presses her head which is about to explode.
In the past, it used to be like a fierce beast with its teeth open and claws dancing. As long as muzixi thought about it a little, it could open its blood pot and swallow her up, so that she would never turn over.
Parenting? Care? Muzixi felt as if he had heard the funniest joke in the world.
Muzixi shakes her head hard to get rid of the nightmare. She takes a deep breath, slowly stands up from the ground, wipes off the tears on her face that she doesn't know when to start flowing wantonly, straightens her hair that has just been scratched, and walks to the door of the hospital.
Haven't seen muzixi for several days? Lin nuofan looked at the mobile calendar in his hand, upset. After muzixi ran away from her three days ago, she seemed to have evaporated from her own world! There was no one to find, even a phone call, no one to answer or shut down. For a moment, Lin nuofan wondered if muzixi would never have any interaction with his life again.
This kind of thought makes him feel frightened and even suffocate! At that moment, Lin found that he could not lose muzixi unconsciously any more. He not only fell in love with her, but also could not live in a world without her. Just thinking about it, he felt panic.
Rinovan had to admit that he was completely attracted to the girl. He fell in love with her strong, optimistic and cheerful, even fell in love with her eyes are often forced down the confusion and vulnerability. She's so beautiful! Just like an angel, it's a pity that this angel carries too much suffering on earth and has tasted too much tears and bitterness.
He wants to protect her, he wants to be her haven! Lin nuofan has decided to tell her how she feels about her next time she sees muzixi.
He, if he wants to catch her, must be braver. The overflowing emotion can't be hidden any more. He doesn't want to be a big brother accompanying her, but a man who wants to be her refuge.
But where is she? In these three days, Lin nuofan has searched all the places she might go to, including the hospital, her former home, school, and even every place where she used to work, but she has not bathed in the Zixi river. Lin nuofan's hands are inserted into her hair in frustration.
Muzixi, where are you? I have a lot to tell you!
At the moment, he is at the door of a wealthy hospital.
He came here because of the sign of Huiyao hospital when he came to pick up the ambulance of mulingfeng that day.
However, he is not sure if Mu Lingfeng is really here. He can only wait at the door.
He expected that this time, God would not let him jump on empty, he really wanted to find her!
Just as he was scratching his head and fidgeting, he suddenly saw a luxury car parked at the door of the hospital. It was not the car that muzixi had taken, so he didn't look at it carefully.
However, when he looked back again, he suddenly found that the figure who had already walked towards the hospital was not muzixi! At this time, she was facing him from the side, but she was wearing this gorgeous overcoat, which made him look suddenly but walk.
She has changed, dress has changed, dress is not cheap, let his subconscious step backward.
She, or the muzixi he knew, he hesitated. He was obviously waiting for her step, but he could not move at this moment.
His eyes light, dead lock muzixi, but the heart is full of questions.
Until he looked at muzixi, before entering the electronic door of the hospital, the fear and doubt that came out of his eyes on everything she was facing now, stared at her still thin figure, and saw the despair in her eyes. At that moment, he suddenly returned to his mind. Even though her clothes had changed, a person's eyes could not deceive people. She was not willing, otherwise, she had already lived such a good life, with rich cars and colorful clothes. Why would she still have such a lonely look.
She, must be for mu Lingfeng, will choose a cruel and painful way to her.
At this moment, Lin nuofan's fists were tightly clenched together. He, as expected, was so useless that she could never rely on him.
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